
Hey there guys, its good to be back after almost two months...
The truth is that I have been struggling for the past two months in so many things...physical, mental and spiritual. But here I am, still standing, still hopeful, and still obedient and faithful. Why? I realize that God is still holding me up, and He is not letting go. That is His promise to us.
Too many things have been bothering me for the past few months, where, normal people without that relationship to God will crumble. I believe that God is honing my principles, my faith and my attitude on a different level now. The Devil has been playing on my mind, where he says, I've made lots of mistakes, I made wrong decisions and God cannot do anything for me now. But I am still fighting. Even Jesus, was tempted and played by the devil for 40 days and 40 nights and I believe that in order for me to be Christ-like, I have to struggle with how the devil plays with me. I believe I will be victorious at the end. I believe that I will win. That is His promise. I will be the head and not the tail. What will I need to do? I only need to commit FULL TRUST in the Lord, and I need to wait for His time, because His time, not mine, is perfect.
Admittedly, things in the physical realm really do not look too good. Business has really been very slow, our new initiatives seem not to work, resources are really limited. Even relationships with people are affected, days are filled with sadness, dissapointments and frustrations. But are they God's work? NO. Business was given to me by God. I just followed His directions. Yes, resources are very limited, but He promised abundance. Sadness, disappoinments are frustrations were not included with His gifts. He only promised a stress free and happy life.
Also, admittedly, the Word is the only thing that is holding me off from insanity. I hold on to the promises of the Word where he said:
Call upon Me in the day of trouble, I will deliver you and you shall glorify me (Ps. 50:15);
And God is able to make all grace abound toward you, that you, always having all sufficiency in all things, may have abundance for every good work. (2 Cor 9:8)
For He shall be like a tree planted near the riverbanks. (Psalm 1:1-6).
Things that I experience now are temporary. What is permanent is His Word and promises.
Considering all things, I still give to the church and to the needy, despite of the limited resources, I still attend to my work because He does not want me to be idle. Besides, those things were given to me by God, and I promise to attend and to be a faithful steward of those things. I am His manager. I still give my time of service to the church, and I am still feeding myself with the Word.
There are days where I feel I am at the dump, where I feel I failed in everything. I know that I have committed mistakes in the past and I have already regretted those mistakes. He is not condemning me for those mistakes, but He lets me learn from them. He made all things new, and I am new in Him. Earthly life is not easy, but He promised eternal life.
Before I also close this blog, I would also like to thank my wife for really being there when I need comfort. I know you do not deserve these sacrifices, but I really appreciate your encouragements, your lifting me up and for really staying there with me. Your words seem to brighten my day. Thanks for the inspiring messages and emails. Donn't worry, I'll make it up to you. I promise.
Finally, let me close with the lyrics of one of my favorite Hillsong songs, the Desert Song:
This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides.
This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a pain proved to be worth more than gold
So refine me Lord through the pain
I will bring praise, I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice, I will declare
God is my victory and He is here.
This is my prayer in my battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir in Christ
So firm on His promise I stand.
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worhip.
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed that I received I will sow.
The desert means dryness, the fire means trials, the battle means struggles and the harvest means overflowing abundance.
During dryness (desert), God provides for me. During trials, I know He is shaping me. During battles, I know He is there with me and during harvests, I have to be emptied again because I need to share, I need to sow. If I will not be emptied, I will not be filled again.
Inspite of all these troubles, God wants us to praise Him, to worship Him, because He is there, because He is faithful, and because He makes His promises true.
So I'll wait, until harvest comes. Until it comes, I will hold on to Him.
Thanks for being faithful Lord, truly you are one Great God! I am tired Lord, carry my load, carry my burdens. This I pray in the name of your Son, Jesus Christ... Amen.







